Archive for October 23, 2012
Regret
If it is over my friends, then there is not much that can be done about it. My father walked out of my life when I six years old . The day he walked out, he didn’t even say goodbye or acknowledge the fact that I even existed. When I became a man and was a father myself, one of my uncles came to me and and told me that he saw my father in a nursing home. I knew in my heart that my dad probably didn’t have much time. In my heart, I felt that the Lord was encouraging me to pay him a visit. I told the Lord that I was OK with what my father had done and that there was no need for me to try and hash things out with him before he died. The Lord did not contend with me, and left me alone for about week and then impressed upon me again to go and see my father. Once again I responded by saying that I was fine, I don’t know that man, therefore I don’t need anything from him. This time the Lord responded, “But he needs something from you.” That’s all the Lord spoke to me, but out of that I knew that my dad was in torment on his death bed over what he had done to me, and that I was the only one that could put his mind at ease. I decided within myself to go and see him to let him know that I was fine and that I was not angry with him. Several days past and I had still not gotten around to seeing my dad. Then one day my wife got a phone call from her best friend saying to her that either her husband, his twin brother, or his father passed away, because there is a picture in the paper of a man with the last name Johnson that looks just like him. I procrastinated and missed the opportunity to help set my dad free, and then, just like that it was too late. As I looked at his picture in the paper I began to regret the fact that I failed to go see Him. Then right at that moment the Lord spoke to me and said, “He is dead and there is nothing you can do about it now. Let it go and move on with your life.” I thought to myself that it was kind of harsh to do that when just days ago He(The Lord) was so insistent that I go and see my dad. Then it hit me, that God does not want any of us to live our lives with regrets, no matter what it is.
Rhon Johnson
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Power Quote:
Regret is an appalling waste of energy; you can’t build on it; it’s only good for wallowing in.
Katherine Mansfield (1888 – 1923)