Where you one of the truly blessed ones that had your dad engaged in your life while you where growing up? By engaged, I mean that not only was he there but he was involved in every aspect of your life. Did he talk to you while you were still in your mothers wombs? Was he there the route you on as you fought to enter into this world on the day of your birth? Did you get to see the proud look in his eyes as he gazed down upon you after they swadled you in a blanket and handed you to him just moments after your birth. Were you allowed to grow without a foreboding of fear constantly hovering over you. If  you can answer yes to these questions, then good for you. But for many of us we have no idea what  it feels like to experience this. To tell you the truth, I really had not given much thought about it until I looked into my sons eyes one day while we were discussing sports. I saw something in his eyes that I couldn’t explain. It was a look of confidence about his life.  There is nothing on his life that is pulling him away from what he needs to be doing at this time in his life. Basically, no drama, he was able to grow physically, mentally and spiritually without fear of any thing because he knew his dad had it covered. What a parallel, A fatherless dad fathering his son. All the things that I needed and desired, I am giving to my son. But I couldn’t, no matter how hard I tried , understand how he was feeling, having his dad completely engaged in his life. I will never have that, I said to myself and began to make attempts to push it out of my mind. But every time I engage my son and I see that look in his eye, I am reminded of how I feel as oppossed to what I see happening to him, and  again I try to put myself in his shoes and feel what he is feeling for just a second. I engaged my kids becuse I don’t want them to feel what I feel. Nevertheless, this has not been my end, I am finding out that I do have a father and that he has engaged me. He was there for every major event in my life, good or bad. I just have to learn to trust and believe Him just the my son trust and believes me.  He is not visable to me,  nor have I heard his audible voice. But now as I look back  I can see where His presenence was engaging in every area of my life. In this world my biological father failed to paint me a picture of manhood. He did not engage me, and take me throug the process of initiating me as a man. Many of my brothers here in America and around the world take the apperance of men, but have not crossed over because they have not been established by another man. I want each of you to know that if this applies to you, don’t through in the towel. We have a father that is ready to establish us. But becuse we have been trained by the absence of an earthly father, we are clueless as to how we are to trust and except this establishing. He appears to be absent just like our biological fathers because we can’t see him or physically touch him. He does not call out to us the way a natural father would do so, but He is there, and we must train our eyes to see him, listen intenetly to hear Him, work hard to obey Him, and more that anything, we must learn to trust Him.

Rhon Johnson

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Power Statement:

I am who He says I am.

Rhon Johnson (1966 –       )